Too Excited Too Even Measure.

I'm so excited that it's time for me to go back learning. At least my brain isn't going to rot just like that. Anyway, my friends are leaving for their foundations earlier than me. So, happy learning to those who are going earlier than me. And thanks to Kak Syari for comforting me.

And syazana, where did you get?

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There's Light at the End of the Tunnel pt.5

Are you a keen secret holder? or some sort confidante? Do you feel the burden of knowing things others ought not to know? Well, well, this sort of thing is Foolish Boy's forte, but the real big problem is that, lately, many people had been coming and going, just to express their secrets to Foolish Boy. Being a good listener and adviser can be a bad thing sometimes, especially if there are too many people to listen to and too little space to place the "knowledge". With each passing day, holding on to the zippers on his big mouth, the Foolish Boy keep doing his daily routine, fitting in each time a mishap occurred. He felt the pressure of keeping all the "vital" information to himself. If he wanted to make a havoc of the school, he would been able to do so, with just little whispers here and there. But, little did they knew, their secrets/problems keeper had the biggest problem of all, even bigger what they had been telling him.

Once, someone did asked the Foolish boy, "You had been hearing people problems for so many times, when you'd ever tell yours?"

"I don't like to talk about myself, besides, it's much more fun when hearing people's stories. They'd make a good read," was all the Foolish Boy could reply.

The Fair Lady, one of the best classmates the Foolish Boy had ever had, was very concerned of this behavior of the Foolish Boy's. She needed to confront him.

"Hey, you. What'cha doing?" the Fair Lady called out.

Recognizing the voice, the Foolish Boy instantly replied "Nothing, I was daydreaming,"

"You were wha!? Daydreaming in the daylights? You've got to be kidding!" the Fair Lady exclaimed, her face was initiating a laughter, waiting to burst.

"What is it? I'm sure you came here not to talk about my daydreaming" the Foolish Boy snapped and gave a stern look to her.

"Well, let's see. Do you have problems in the school? Something you could share with me?" the Fair Lady asked.

"Nothing I could think of. Even if I have one, I don't kiss and tell." the Foolish Boy replied, he was sure with this answer she would leave him alone, letting him continue to daydreaming.

"That's no fun when you don't share your problems. How do you relieve your stress? Huh!?" the Fair Lady keeps pestering the Foolish Boy with more questions.

"I listen to peoples' stories, and it entertains me, A LOT," with that the Foolish Boy stood up and head for the door.

"If anyone asked, I'll be "away"," the Foolish Boy smiled and hurriedly disappear.

Unsatisfied with the conversation, the Fair Lady was very determined to know what the Foolish Boy is keeping. But then again, with the Foolish Boy's attitude, the Fair Lady knew quite well, that she'd never get a decent answer or maybe a truthful one, yet. But all in all, she knew, he'd succumbed to her someday later.

And it was already nearing the finals and they were heading for senior year. By the time, The Foolish Boy had made so many friends and it had already be his family, his own family in the school. Though they might not fit the missing pieces, at least the partially fills the gap and loosing ends. It might not be a masterpiece, but you may never know. And, the Foolish Boy's relationship with others, especially the Cool Guy, are going to flourish soon, or so thought the Foolish Boy. A new year is always a new change for everyone, maybe people could change too, the change of heart. May the next year be another amazing year for the Foolish Boy, and oh about the exams, well, let's say he did his best.

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Dream of You

Every night, I dream, I dream of you,
Every daydreaming, I dream of you,
And it's such a waste,
That you'd never dream of me.

So please leave, and let me be free,
Never have to think it be,
Just walk away and leave.
cause your brief smile, makes me crazy,
I never ever think of it thoroughly,
So what, I'll go crazy for thee.

Just that leave me be.

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Letter Arrived!

Guess what?! The JPA offer letter came yesterday, or the day before yesterday, making me jumped to the roof. (figuratively speaking :D). Anyway, the first thing I saw when I opened the enveloped was another smaller enveloped, written on it was "South Australian Matriculation" in short SAM. Where you asked? Well, at Taylor's College! Woohoo, I'm coming to Subang sometime later! :D Not so sure to be that excited or not. What is SAM exactly? That I can't really tell, so I'm gonna do some research later. Know some good sites that I can refer to?

Reading the offer letter was really one of the happiest moments of my entire life, the feeling sure lasts ephemerally. The scholarship was given to me alright, but the amount that they gonna give me while I'm still in Malaysia is unbearable. Not going to mention the amount here, or I'm gonna die out of shame here, really. Not that I'm being ungrateful, although I might sound like one, it's just that scholarships are meant to take off the burden of your parents to school you and not to lighten their burden a little bit. I will try to cope up somehow. Sorry, I might sound ungrateful, it's just kinda sad, that MARA is giving quite a hefty scholarships to their students while JPA is kinda stingy when it comes to money. I'm not supposed to blame JPA, instead I should thanked them kan? Thanks a lot to JPA for sponsoring my studies and which in return I have to work my ass for you guys. Talk about a fair deal. :D

From now on, I promise to:

• use my money wisely and not buying anything that could be considered "a waste"
• never skip on my prayers, InsyaAllah.
• mingle with the good influence crowd (not that I ever mingled with the bad crowd.)
• never to follow the ways of those trend setters, rich, influential, friends-to-be of mine.
• and lastly, never forget that I'm a sponsored boy, so act like one. :D

Haha,I'm so sorry if I had offended anyone.

Tata XD

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7 things

Seven things that scare me
1. darkness
2. height
3. speed
4. hostile people
5. villains
6.dark truths
7. loneliness

Seven things I like
1.my handphone.
2.my computer
3.food
4.sweets
5.lots of money
6.blogging
7.music

Seven things I dislike
1.stomach ache
2.not keeping touch
3.slow internet connections
4.my opinions rejected/bothered
5. seafoods other than fish
6.getting a "No!" from parents
7.getting hurt

Seven things I have in my room
1. my computer
2.a television
3.2 wardrobes
4.queen-sized bed, shared with my brother
5.another computer, owned by my brother.
6.books
7.unused bags

Seven random facts about me
1.the F word. not to be mentioned here.
2.quite short, for a guy.
3.spectacles
4.perfectionist freak
5.into animes, A LOT >.<
6.loves to sing and hear music
7.loves my friends

Seven things I plan to do before I die
1.another disneyland trip..so what?
2.learn japanese. another anime influence
3.visit japan and korea.
4.visit the Holy Land of Makkah to do haj of course
5.Rich, baby, rich!
6.bought all the latest gadgets
7.own a land

Seven things I can't do
1.buy anything that i wanted, by my own money that is.
2.eat all i want, and not getting that what-the-heck look.
3.own as many off gadgets i wanted
4.own a room for myself
5.watch animes alone.
6.get mad, really MAD.
7.sing a rock song

Seven things I say the most
1.seriously?
2.Allah!
3.Whatever
4.really?
5.that sucks.
6.bye-bye
7.okie-dokie

Seven things I say the most on my blog
1.you
2.really
3.I
4.Anyway,
5.Do
6.Well
7.plus.

Seven things that attract me to the opposite
1.smart
2.lovely
3.caring
4.religious
5.obedient
6.motherly
7.romantic

Seven celebrity crushes
1.Serena Van der Woodsen from Gossip Girl
2.Kelly Clarkson
3.YUI
4.Utada Hikaru
5.Angela Aki
6.Kate Hudson
7.Drew Berrymoore

Seven people to tag
1.No
2.one
3.particular
4.since
5.everyone
6.were
7.tagged.

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A Drop of Sanity

I'm been out of business for quite some time now, which the cause is, I really don't know what to type any more. My life had started to slow down again since some of my friends had left for matrix, leaving me to let my brain rotten more and more each day. So, it's quite no activities lately, but me and a friend of mine had plan to go to Hot FM Mini Jam at Alor Star Tower tomorrow, to have some fun and watch the concert of course. Just hoping that people wouldn't be too many or else it's gonna be damned pack. So any Kedahans wanna join me to the Concert. It's kinda fun actually, since these stuff are rarely held in Kedah. For example, Jom Heboh by TV3 had come once to Kedah and after some mysteriously occasion, they never made a second visit. Well, when they first came, the cars was queuing from the Stadium until the main road near my house. Thre whole day, I can't go out at all, by car that is.

Anyway, late last night, I watched the rerun of American Idol Season 7 Finale, since I miss it because I'm too lazy to remember the dates of shows that I like. The main point is, I now know the winner! Congratulations to David Cook for being the Season 7 Idol! Well, it's my favourite singer so just go with it okay? To David Archuletta, don't be so down, you're not all bad your self too. :D

Everyone's favourite singer, David Cook

Well, mine and people like me actually. And don't you think that Jason whatever his name is, is WAY TOO close to David?! Talk about extreme happiness, for someone else that is. I hope David Cook can be famous like his predecessors, such as Kelly Clarkson, Ruben, Jordin Sparks and so on.

tata XD

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I'm Feeling Less Brighter than Usual

Do you ever wonder what will ever happen to your brain if it's not active at all for quite some time?
Do you get these symptoms?

• You'll get blurrier easier,
  
• You'll tend to misspelled everything or everyone that you know,
  
• You'll tend to know a thing or two about something and yet you can't really recall what it is all about.
• You'll tend to forget names those you weren't really close too.
  
• You heard a joke and wished you weren't that slow upon picking up the joke,
• You watched television and yet it doesn't stimulate your brain,
• You knew the place and yet it was still an unknown place.

Damn, that must be a serious case of a lazy brain. I mean, I get blur sometimes and I usually misspelled things or people that I know. I do know about that certain things and yet I can't really search for the necessary files from my brain. Weird huh? Maybe I didn't have anything that really requires much of the brain energy that is making me duller by the minute. Good Lord, I need some activities to do soon or my brain will keep turning off by itself. Haha, anyway, I'm still waiting for the offer letter from JPA because I NEED to know where I'm going next.

Tata XD

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The Age That I Wish To Go Back To

Smiles. :D

Like the title says, I wish to go to the age when I was still 10 years old, when having fun have no boundaries. I remember back then when I used to have lots and lots of fun playing around with my good old friends, and fortunately, we're still friends even now. The best thing about being a primary school kid, is that you can always act innocent and yet at the same time be SO damn wrong. Teachers are less strict to you and your parents doesn't really care much about what your ambition is, and now that you're a teenager and nearing adult hood, your parents keep asking what you gonna do as an adult?

Tsk. Tsk.

Those moments, how I wish I could be a kid and at the same time be an adult so that I could buy my own comics, my own games and my own stuffs.

Now this tag goes to anyone who wanted to tell the world which age they wanted to go to. Well, I just list the name anyway, hehe :D

+Kay-Ay
+Manissa
+Amiirah
+Wany
+Dawa

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Instructions

Title: The Age That I Wish To Go Back To
Requirement: Write about the one age that you wish to go back to and why?
Tag Mode: 5 bloggers
1st - You leave their blog and post link and add to the list below.
2nd - Let the blogger you want to tag know they been tagged by comment in their blog or etc.



The Age they wish to go back to:

Amidrin wish to go back to age 22 to correct back some mistakes in life.
Lemonjude wish to go back to age 6 to enjoy kid's life.
L'abeille wish to go back to any year but never return to age 28.
Sweetpea wish to go back to, actually, just thinking about 17.
Jean Chia wish to go back to 14 years old.
eastcoastlife wishes to go back to age 24 when she's in demand.
Emila wish to go back to the age of 7 to live that precious moments again
Rizal wish to go back to the age of 7 super wonders of my world.
Mangosteenskin wish to back to age 7 to chase back Macik Piut’s geese and dogs!
Mariuca wish to go back to age 14 to forget her current sorrows.
Syari wish to go back to age 19 when she first went to the University.
Chom wish to go back to age 1o when he went to primary school and act all innocent.

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Overseas, here I go!

It's been hell of a day, you know when you were waiting for your own result to come out and the server were packed with other users. Well, I managed to get the result as the JPA put up another server because their current server is down, maybe caused by the rushing of all the people who wanted to know their results. Who wanted to go to the matrix when you got a better offer to fly overseas? I know I wouldn't, so I pushed my luck and here's my result:

Hehe.. I got the offer :D. Really, I got it, and it was a surprise for me. I mean 2000 out of 7000 got the offer and I'm one of them. Thanks a lot for my friends and who had been there for me all this time. Thanks a lot for the support and the comfort whenever I thought I'm not going to get any of it. Thanks again everyone! :D And I'm so sorry Irfan, that I couldn't come and join you at the Penang Matrix. Maybe it's the best for both of us.

Tata XD

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Beyond a Heartache

Today, something happened. For the first time, I cried in front of the computer because I heard a very simple truth about what happened to my friends. I just can't believe it, in fact I wont believe any of it. First of all, I just heard the rumors. Well, it's just rumors and people do talk, so what's the big deal? Some time later, someone buzzed me through Yahoo! Messenger. It was my good friend from previous school. For quite some time, I haven't heard of him. I even thought he had already forgotten all about me, you know, when you had new friends, you'll tend to forget the old one, like I did to my old friends, which I felt so terrible about it and so does he. It was a brief chat, from happy and light talks, to a dark and dull one.

It was then when I know the real truth and it hurts my heart so much, for I am one who love my friends and trust them too much.

My purpose of writing is not to make shame of them. Not to ruin the image they are carrying or used to carrying anyway. But I wanna make a wake up call for them because as a friend I cannot just let it go like this. I cannot turn a blind eye on them. Both of them, the boy and the girl are the best of my friends, still what they did was unforgivable to me, even though it's not me who got inflicted with the consequences. I just got an heartache. A heartache which I wouldn't know when or how it's gonna heal. What they got is an unbearable thought from me and maybe some of the people who knew the truth. Please guys, please change, and please repent for every single wrong that you guys did. I'm begging you guys to stop. Please, as friend who used to be so close with you guys. Alhamdulillah that the boy woke up after what he had did. I pray for their succes to repent and change. May Allah S.W.T be with them.

Speechless me,
Tata XD

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Waiting, Jealousy and Despair

Flu and Offer;
It's been hell of a day to me today. I feel really terrible; my body's weak because of the flu, and I'm feeling angry and jealous for no reason. Actually, there's a reason behind all this. It's simple; I'm not good enough to do anything right like my plans supposed to be. I wanted things go well and exactly like I've planned, but it's not going like it should be. What's wrong with my plans? The calculations maybe? Yeah, the calculations on my side. You know, I'm still waiting for that offer, but JPA make others like me wait from 2nd week of May to the middle of May.

Convincing and Running;
They said and convinced me to go to the other place, which I reluctantly say yes, but instead they got a better offer, and left me there alone. I can't really blame them now, can I? I chose to go there on my own liberty of choosing. Yet, I can't help it, but to blame them since it was them who tried to manipulate my choice. This is how humans work. They are just doing things for their own good, and who am I to say no to them? I feel terrible typing this as well, since they're my best of friends. Jealousy is really killing me now. Especially that jealousy goes to my friends as well.

Despair does nothing;
I felt really terrible for being jealous and at the same time I'm struck with a flu, and it all thanks to my sister, despite being a doctor, she insists on coming to me. We all know flu is infectious, right? Anyway, I'm feeling bad right now, and I think I need a decent sleep to regain my strength. And I'm so sorry for saying those things, friends. It's just my thoughts. Pray for my success you all, I definitely do the same.

Tata XD

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Mother, such a Wonder

Mother, such a Wonder

Mother,
I would never replace another,
For your care and touch,
Is always a good thing to have much,
Your smile on the face,
Giving the coldest heart a warm embrace,
Such things is a wonder,
Because you're my mother.

Mother,
I was once thought you were a bother,
Saying "No!" to what I wanted,
Giving me the tantrums short lasted,
Only some years later,
I met people here, there and another,
To notice their lovely mothers,
Never say "No!" to even bother.

Mother,
A word of beautiful wonders,
I will never ever asked for another,
You're the one, I will bother,
Because, its simple, you're the Mother,
And I will always be the little other,
Love you always and forever,
Because you see, mother,
You're such a wonder.

written by AkmalG © AkmalG

Happy Mother's Day, I dedicate to all mothers out there and a special one to my mother. I love you mother, now, always and forever. Celebrate this month with your own mother, and love them, not only in this month but every month and every year, because you will never be able to replace with another. Happy Mother's Day once again. :D

Tata XD

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Tomorrow's Way - YUI

Romaji

Ima wo kowashite shimaitai
Ima ni sugaritsuite itai
Jibun no koto wa wakaranai

Yarinaoseru hazu nai yo
Shiranai machi ni kakurete mitemo
Mado goshi ni tada ima wo omou

Nigedashitai shoudou kara
Nigedasu made no koujitsu ni mayou

Chigireta kioku wo tadoreba
Ano koro ni datte modoreru
Itsuka no shounen mitai ni

Kanaeru tame umarete kita no
Osanaki hibi ni egaita uchuu
I'm a baby nakitaku mo naru
Te ni ireru tame no
Itami nara so good

Ikiru koto ga tatakai nara
Kachimake mo shikata ga nai koto
Sonna koto kurai wakatte iru yo

Nakidashitai shougeki kara
Hashiridashita asu e to kodou ga sawagu

Massugu ni ikite yukitai
Tada massugu ni ikite itai
Ano hi no shounen mitai ni

Kanaeru tame umarete kita no
Osanaki hibi ni kanjita kokyuu
I'm a baby nakitaku mo naru
Te ni ireru tame no
Itami nara so good

Dareka no kotoba ni tsumazukitakunai
Madowasaretakunai...

Ashita mo kitto kagayaite iru
Osanaki hibi ni modoranakute ii
Tomorrow's way of my life kowagari dakedo
Hikikaesenai michi ni tatteru

Kanaeru tame umarete kita no
Osanaki hibi ni egaita uchuu
I'm a baby naitari shinai
Te ni ireru tame no
Itami nara so good

English

I want to destroy the moment
I want to cling to the moment
I don’t understand myself

Of course I can’t do it over
Even when I try to hide in an unfamiliar town
I just think about the present going on outside my window

I want to run away from my impulses
But before I can, my excuses get in the way

If I follow my shattered memories
I can even go back to that time
Like a boy one day

I was born to live up to
The universe I imagined as a child
I'm a baby, I want to cry
The pain it takes to get it
Is so good

If life is a battle
Then we can’t help whether we win or lose
That much I know

My heart is pounding out of control from running towards tomorrow
From the shock that made me want to cry

I want to live a straight life
I just want to live a straight life
Like that boy that day

I was born to live up to
The universe I imagined as a child
I'm a baby, I want to cry
The pain it takes to get it
Is so good

I don’t want to stumble over someone’s words
I don’t want to be led astray…

Tomorrow, too, will surely sparkle
It doesn’t matter if I can’t go back to my childhood days
I’m scared of tomorrow’s way of my life
But I’m standing in a path I can’t go back down

I was born to live up to
The universe I imagined as a child
I'm a baby, I want to cry
The pain it takes to get it
Is so good

Credit goes to http://www.corichan.com/

Anyway, this is the song that I recently used as the opening, I just love the rhythm and the lyrics of course. Don't look back now, because there's always tomorrow for us all.

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Of Grey's Anatomy and Bonston Legal

I'm still confused, confused on what I should do instead. Confused on what I should really become, after all this is my life I'm talking about, not someone else's. The thing is, I'm torn of wanting to work in the science field and at the same time, do some English-related stuffs. Why can't I just do both without wasting so much time so I could be richer before I'm even 30? Every time I hear people(these people are doctors, mind you o.O) talk about how the spinal cord got torn, or how the blood is spilled from the neck, I got this feeling of the highest intrigued-ness and wanting to know much more about it. I wanna work as a doctor, with high paying that is. And when I watch how people talk about laws and how they alter it, I was also intrigued about it.

So, can anyone help me? I don't want Irfan's opinion since I know the answer already. Hahaha :D

Tata XD

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Tag me.

Hmm, while I was doing my brief visit to my fellow bloggers, Kak Nana had tagged me with this new kind of tag, (to me, :D).

1. Copy all the links below
2. Add your own link after the last one
3. Tag another 10 people

p/s : The most important thing is to upload cute pictures? (please, upload your own pictures :D)

Isn't she the cutest? My niece.

[BennyLiew][RamblingMoo][Mum & Kids In Wonderland][JudeLittle][Our Mini Blogsphere][Rooms in My Heart][JaniCeng][ChinNee][Jo-N][LadyLava's Lounge][Strange But True][How's Life Bout][My.Stories.][Rhea Scarlet] [Hanna J. Potter] [NaNa PynkHappinesS][Chom's Window to the Pasts]

Well this tag goes to *randomly pick people* :

1. Ka-Ay

2. Irfan

3. Amiirah

4. Wany

5. Muni

6. Kak Syari

7. Manissa

8. Aqma

Do it whenever you wanted to! O.o

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Cranky Results

Oh God! Whatever did happen to me this time? On one fine Thursday afternoon which is of course also the Labour Day of Malaysia, I got a message telling me that UPU results are already out. So following the instructions told, I messaged back to the UPU's number. And what did I get? Your application was received and is still in the processing, please take note the results will be coming out this May 2008.

ZOMG!? What the heck? Everyone else already got the results. Luckily, one of my homeroom mates messaged me telling that there's a way to check it online. I type the web address, and type my I/C number, and there it was. My result.

Law Foundation at UIAM. What the HECK!?

That wasn't even my first choice, and out of all the sciences courses that I applied, they gave me Law INSTEAD!?

Ya Allah S.W.T! I promised I'll repent, please just get me the damn JPA offer, I don't mind doing law, really, in overseas that is.

Now I'm gonna go and curse the plants and my fishes. Seriously.

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Envious of the Goodness

One night as I was browsing through my internet browser, mind you I use Mozilla Firefox since the Internet Explorer sucks big time with recent updates, I was buzzed through the Yahoo! Messenger by one of my old friends from MJSC and it's been quite a long time since I last talked with him. Not going to miss this golden chance, I quickly seized it. It was good to get the chance to chat with your friends, especially the ones that you had been lost contact with. We reminisce the old days on how hard it was to get up for the Subuh Prayers despite the loud banging of doors made from the student and teachers like. Anyway, this particular friend of mine had enrolled to the MSU, Management and Science University in Malaysia, a private university.

I don't really get it how people would go into private university, especially someone like me, an ordinary boy with no materialistic background. Private university doesn't really convinced me and my family, not saying that the private ones are a bad choice, just that it was way too expensive that normal. Well, they did said private kan? But, that doesn't mater, really. What matters is how I envy the life of a student my dear friend is living right now. He have the freedom to do mostly anything, as long it doesn't affect anyone around him. He got to cook for himself, live in apartments, ride cars to the college and so on. What a life! I hope I could get that kind of student's life. Anyway, good luck to my friend on this coming exams. Haha, students and exams will always mix isn't it?

Tata XD

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